What is my function?

Having previously mentioned that I do not have a visa to work in the land of the free. I find myself in need of finding my meaning, my purpose, my function.

I feel like I have lived a thousand lives, a bit of a jack of all trades.

I’ve cleaned, served, managed. I’ve welded, sorted and fixed. I’ve studied, helped and posed but yet I can not seen to find my true north.

BC (Before Children) I thought that music was my thing. Playing my bass, feeling free and having fun with friends in a language reserved for those in that circle. But that has drifted since my monkeys decided to reap havoc on my life!

So what now? Where do I go from here?

From conversations with friends it seems that it is only a rare few that find their place early in life. Others (like me) wonder around between a rock and hard place seeking something that seems so right until it seems so wrong. How does one find their meaning? My lovely husband picked up a guitar when he was very young and bish bash bosh, thirty odd years later he’s still playing. My best friend studied hairdressing at 16 and to this day is happy chopping locks. How the hell did they do this?

I don’t come from a place that is all about living the dream. It was very much people taking the job that will bring in the cash. Working to live. So, I know this is a luxury problem! But given that I have an option, it would be silly of me to just find a job that makes me want to shove a hot screwdriver in my eye at the sound of the morning alarm.

Like many. I want a career that has it all. I want to be crazy creative but I want organisation.  I want to work with people but also alone. I want to work with my computer but nothing to complicated. I want to see my children and be able to drop everything at a moments notice to be there for them.

My real career should be like an 80’s movie montage. Creative and sexy with an amazing(cheesy) sound track.

Having once been described as a floater – In a more loving way than saying I was the scabby backwash left in your drink. More in a way that, I’m kind of happy doing anything. I can float from one place to the next and find happiness. This is true, but I also get that feeling of flight. I always want a little more, or a little less. One thing is for sure I want it all now!

I know lots of people feel this way and I’m intrigued to find out how they found their passion, if indeed the ever have. Is it just a trial and error thing or is there a way of defining what you should be doing?

So what is my function?

 

 

 

 

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10 comments

  1. kenmatthews · November 18

    You are a natural born writer… You constantly amaze me. All power to your quill…

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  2. fitnessanthropology · November 19

    You are you, and not your career:) But I get the thing about ‘all is about the children’ and then what afterwards? I’m quite scared myself, when mine grow up – what do I then do?:)
    Lots of love,
    Xxx
    (Oh and yes, you do need to do something with people and Not in front of a computer – you’re such a vibrant, lovely gal).

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    • ladyquist · November 19

      Yes, the confusion of children! You’d be proud of my gym outings/fitness classes just now. I hope you’re well and would love to see you. Come visit!!!

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  3. Tughela Gino · November 19

    I like Ken’s comment : YOUR FUNCTION IS TO WRITE !!!!! DO IT MORE WE LOVE IT !
    You also don’t need anyones permission for that, and you can take it with you everywhere you go.

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    • ladyquist · November 19

      Maybe you’re right. But my thoughts are so sporadic. No continuity or consistency at all!

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  4. Tughela Gino · November 20

    I guess the thread in your work will develop. Or maybe its more about your tone. Either way you are a natural writer- go with the flow. This last post reads especially well.

    You are one of the few full time mums I know that does not seem consumed by the children- you clearly have a very interesting perspective…to share

    Other than that- my view is that if you don’t have a “thing” that you are into and love to do, then do something that makes a difference…for the greater good, that has to make sense right ?

    I am looking at shifting what I do so that its giving something back rather than contributing to the problem- thats never straight forward but its worth a try.

    Txx

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    • ladyquist · November 21

      Totally makes sense. Maybe hurry and get your butt across here and we can make a difference together! I’m thinking you design homes for the homeless a I’ll write about it…and maybe some other helpful things! x

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  5. G Jessiman · November 21

    I think, going by your wishes and expectations of a career. The one job that ticks most of those boxes would be a guidance councillor/teacher. You have a wealth of experience behind you and an insightful view of your surroundings. These could easily be used to help others see things as clearly as you can.

    Using English as a base teaching position from which to progress would be the most logical way to go. It also gives you a solid grounding for writing which I personally think should be a spare time/leasure activity. Only because publishers and deadlines would soon suck the fun out of it.

    Bonus prize is you also get a healthy chunk of job satisfaction and great holidays.

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